Five out of seven days of the week my self esteem is terribly low, today was the third. During the day I hardly say a word, I'm stressed, and I want to take a whack at my self. Reason, I am terribly annoying. Anything I do, I say, or even text is crossing the line. I'm not even talking about annoying others. People get a crack out of me and I am ok with it. Over half the things I say/ do are completely stupid, people love it. I, on the other hand, can't stand it, I don't know why. I mean God made me this way, I should flaunt it! Immediately after I tell myself that, I am fine. Then I speak again. So those days I just sit there, I don't speak, and I claim to be "tired." I'm not, I'm just annoying myself. If when I first meet you, and don't speak. I'm not shy, I just don't want to annoy you as much as I do myself.I haven't always annoyed myself. In fact, only about the last month have I felt this way. I have tried so many ways to think differently about myself, I have prayed countless times over it. I will eventually get over this, it'll take time, but I'm trying.
shaina you're amazing! true somedays you are semi-annoying but not very often. i think you put to much pressure on yourself. lighten up a little! this is just your personality! but if it truly does bother you soo much then eventually you will get over this...-karli
ReplyDeleteShaina, how I love your quirks and personality! And how I understand - I get on my own nerves all of the time! Today at lunch, I was annoying myself and I would not stop talking. Finally, I stood up and looked at the people at my table and said, "I'm leaving now because all I can do is get on my own nerves more and more." They began to laugh and said I was funny and wished me a good day... I guess that was a good response. I think you are a blast and a half. Sorry you had a bad day... but know that you are always going to be your toughest critic.
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